The act that regulates us becoming the currency that exposes us is a particularly cruel inversion. And once it's been monetised, even partly, the inward use of it is, contaminated. You can't fully return to the silent, private version because the public version has trained the nervous system to expect an audience. The long detour back to doing it for yourself is real and slow and worth every minute of it. I'm so glad you're writing about this part of it. Lovely piece.
The act that regulates us becoming the currency that exposes us is a particularly cruel inversion. And once it's been monetised, even partly, the inward use of it is, contaminated. You can't fully return to the silent, private version because the public version has trained the nervous system to expect an audience. The long detour back to doing it for yourself is real and slow and worth every minute of it. I'm so glad you're writing about this part of it. Lovely piece.
Thank you. You’re right, contaminated is the word. Feel like I’m slowly distilling the pure feelings back out of it, drop by drop.
Drop by drop is exactly the right pace. You can't rush distillation 💚.